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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

 

HISTORY V.--S.W., aged 64, English, musical journalist. The 

communication which follows (somewhat abbreviated) was written 

before S.W. had heard or read anything about sexual inversion, 

and when he still believed that his own case was absolutely 

unique. 

 

"I am the son of a clergyman, and lived for the first thirteen 

years of my life in the country town where I was born. Then my 

father became the vicar of a country village, where I lived until 

I went out into the world at the age of 18. As during the whole 

of this time my father had a few pupils, I was educated with 

them, and never went to school. I was born, I fancy, with sexual 

passions about as strong as can well be imagined, and at the same 

time was very precocious in my entry into the stage of puberty. 

Semen began to form a little before my twelfth birthday; hair 

soon followed, and in a year I was in that respect the equal of 

an average boy of 15 or 16. I conversed freely with my companions 

on the relations of the sexes, but, unlike them, had no personal 

feeling toward girls. In time I became conscious that I was 

different, as I then believed, and believe now, from all other 

men. My sexual organs were quite perfect. But in the frame of a 

man I had the sexual mind of a female. I distinctly disclaim the 

faintest inclination to perform unnatural acts; the idea of 

committing sodomy would be _most disgusting_. 

 

"To come to my actual condition of mind: While totally 

indifferent to the person of woman (I always enjoyed their 

friendship and companionship, and many of my best friends have 

been ladies), I had a burning desire to have carnal intercourse 

with a male, and had the capacity for falling in love, as it is 

called, to the utmost extent. In imagination, I possessed the 

female organ, and felt toward man exactly as an amorous female 

would. At the time when I became fully conscious of my condition, 

I attached little importance to it; I had not a notion of its 

terrible import, nor of the future misery it would entail. All 

that I had to learn by bitter experience. 

 

"I did once think of forcing myself to have connection with a 

prostitute in order to see whether the actual sensual enjoyment 

might bring a change, and so have the power to marry. But when it 

came to thinking over ways and means, my repugnance to the act 

became so strong that it was quite out of the question. In the 

case of any male to whom I became attached, I wanted to feel 

ourselves together, skin to skin, and to be privileged to take 

such liberties as an amorous female would take if that were all 

permitted. I sought no purely sensual gratification of any kind; 

my love was far too genuine for that. 

 

"During the rather more than half a century which has elapsed 

since my twelfth birthday, I have been genuinely in love about 

thirteen times. I despair attempting to give an idea of the depth 

and reality of my feelings. I have alluded to my precocity. I was 

in love when 12 years old, the object being a man of 24, a 

well-known analytical chemist. He came to my father's house very 

frequently; and my heart beat almost at the mention of his name. 

 

"The next serious time I was about 15. It was a farmer's son, 

about two years older. I don't think that I was ever alone with 

him, and really only knew him as a member of his family, yet for 

a time he was my chief interest in life. 

 

"When 21 I had a 'chum,' a youth of 17, who entertained for me, 

at any rate, a brotherly affection. We were under the same roof, 

and early one summer morning he got out of bed and came direct to 

my room to talk about some matter or other. In order to talk more 

comfortably he got into bed with me and we lay there just as two 

school-girls might have done. This proximity was more than I 

could stand, and my heart began to beat so that it was impossible 

that he should not notice it. As, of course, he could not have 

the slightest notion of the reason, he said in all innocence, 

'Why, how your heart beats. I can hear it quite plainly.' 


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