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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

the freedom with which he invited and satisfied the curiosity of 

his friends. He must have been precocious, for he could not have 

been more than 12, and I remember to have heard that he had a 

thick growth of pubic hair. Even then, although I know that my 

curiosity--to put it at that only--was active, I never allowed 

myself to have any dealings with him; and I think I should have 

discouraged them had they been suggested to me. That is the odd 

thing about my life: the things I longed intensely to do I would 

not let myself do, not from any religious or moral scruple, but 

from some inexplicable fastidiousness or scrupulosity which is 

yet as active as ever, although I am sure that it would not be 

able to hold its own could these favorable conditions be 

repeated, but would be overcome by the imperious and fully grown 

desires which, by long repression, or by unsatisfactory 

diversion, have grown to be so strong. Indeed, given the 

opportunity, and the assurance that no first seduction or 

corruption of anyone was in question, they would prove quite 

irrepressible. 

 

"Certainly, long before puberty--which was early with me--I 

remember being greatly attracted to certain boys, and wishing to 

have an opportunity of sleeping with them. Had I been able to do 

so, I am sure I should have been impelled to get into as close 

contact with their naked body as possible, and I do not think I 

should then have craved for anything more. I knew some 

boys--perhaps a little older--who even then had relations, which 

were certainly not innocent, with a girl who was a year or two 

older than any of us. She once kissed me, to my intense shame. 

But I felt that these relations would have been unspeakably 

disgusting and I took no particular interest in hearing about 

them. I remember being fondled and caressed by a very 

good-looking boy of 16 when I was three or four years younger and 

had sustained some hurt at play; and I am still able to recall 

the thrill of delight that I experienced at his touch. Nothing 

took place that all the world might not have seen, but I remember 

being taken between his knees as he sat, and his arms being put 

around my neck, and the warm, soft pressure of his thighs had an 

unspeakable effect on me. 

 

"About this time, too, an older boy, perhaps about 18, used to 

get hold of smaller boys when on country walks, to throw them 

down and then look at and toy with their genitals. He was 

himself a handsome boy, and I was greatly excited when told about 

this by boys who had experienced it, and wished greatly to have 

it done to me. It never was; and if it had been attempted I know 

I should have resisted with all my strength, although my desires 

would have set me aflame. This boy died before he was 20, with a 

psoas abscess, and I remember crying myself to sleep the night I 

learned of his death. Another boy, about three years older than 

myself, who had very silky hair, I used to be attracted by and I 

was always trying to stroke his hair, but he always objected. 

 

"I must have been about 12 when I first was taught to masturbate 

by a cousin who was slightly older. At first I thought it silly, 

but I used to watch him at it, and practised it myself from time 

to time until I became old enough to experience the proper 

sensation. Then I have reason to think I gave myself up to it 

rather freely, but it was generally done in solitude, although it 

was long before I realized that there was anything wrong about it 

or that it might prove hurtful. Looking back now, I feel 

perfectly certain that my instincts were wholly homosexual from 

the very first. This cousin, who possessed notable intellectual 

and artistic gifts, married, but I feel sure his liking for his 

own sex was not normal. 

 

"With another cousin, almost years my junior, I was always on 

terms of the most affectionate intimacy. My holidays at his 

parents' house were my greatest delight. We were always together 

by night or day; we slept in the same bed, literally in each 


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