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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

HISTORY VII.--"My parentage is very sound and healthy. Both my 

parents (who belong to the professional middle class) have good 

general health; nor can I trace any marked abnormal or diseased 

tendency, of mind or body, in any records of the family. 

 

"Though of a strongly nervous temperament myself, and sensitive, 

my health is good. I am not aware of any tendency to physical 

disease. In early manhood, however, owing, I believe, to the 

great emotional tension under which I lived, my nervous system 

was a good deal shattered and exhausted. Mentally and morally my 

nature is pretty well balanced, and I have never had any serious 

perturbations in these departments. 

 

"At the age of 8 or 9, and long before distinct sexual feelings 

declared themselves, I felt a friendly attraction toward my own 

sex, and this developed after the age of puberty into a 

passionate sense of love, which, however, never found any 

expression for itself till I was fully 20 years of age. I was a 

day-boarder at school and heard little of school-talk on sex 

subjects, was very reserved and modest besides; no elder person 

or parent ever spoke to me on such matters; and the passion for 

my own sex developed gradually, utterly uninfluenced from the 

outside. I never even, during all this period, and till a good 

deal later, learned the practice of masturbation. My own sexual 

nature was a mystery to me. I found myself cut off from the 

understanding of others, felt myself an outcast, and, with a 

highly loving and clinging temperament, was intensely miserable. 

I thought about my male friends--sometimes boys of my own age, 

sometimes elder boys, and once even a master--during the day and 

dreamed about them at night, but was too convinced that I was a 

hopeless monstrosity ever to make any effectual advances. Later 

on it was much the same, but gradually, though slowly, I came to 

find that there were others like myself. I made a few special 

friends, and at last it came to me occasionally to sleep with 

them and to satisfy my imperious need by mutual embraces and 

emissions. Before this happened, however, I was once or twice on 

the brink of despair and madness with repressed passion and 

torment. 

 

"Meanwhile, from the first, my feeling, physically, toward the 

female sex was one of indifference, and later on, with the more 

special development of sex desires, one of positive repulsion. 

Though having several female friends, whose society I like and to 

whom I am sincerely attached, the thought of marriage or 

cohabitation with any such has always been odious to me. 

 

"As a boy I was attracted in general by boys rather older than 

myself; after leaving school I still fell in love, in a romantic 

vein, with comrades of my own standing. Now,--at the age of 

37,--my ideal of love is a powerful, strongly built man, of my 

own age or rather younger--preferably of the working class. 

Though having solid sense and character, he need not be specially 

intellectual. If endowed in the latter way, he must not be too 

glib or refined. Anything effeminate in a man, or anything of the 

cheap intellectual style, repels me very decisively. 

 

"I have never had to do with actual pederasty, so called. My 

chief desire in love is bodily nearness or contact, as to sleep 

naked with a naked friend; the specially sexual, though urgent 

enough, seems a secondary matter. Pederasty, either active or 

passive, might seem in place to me with one I loved very 

devotedly and who also loved me to that degree; but I think not 

otherwise. I am an artist by temperament and choice, fond of all 

beautiful things, especially the male human form; of active, 

slight, muscular build; and sympathetic, but somewhat indecisive 

character, though possessing self-control. 

 

"I cannot regard my sexual feelings as unnatural or abnormal, 

since they have disclosed themselves so perfectly naturally and 

spontaneously within me. All that I have read in books or heard 

spoken about the ordinary sexual love, its intensity and passion, 


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