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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

 

 

HISTORY IX.--R.S., aged 31, American of French descent. "Upon the 

question of heredity I may say that I belong to a reasonably 

healthy, prolific, and long-lived family. On my father's side, 

however, there is a tendency toward pulmonary troubles. He 

himself died of pneumonia, and two of his brothers and a nephew 

of consumption. Neither of my parents were morbid or eccentric. 

Excepting for a certain shyness with strangers, my father was a 

very masculine man. My mother is somewhat nervous, but is not 

imaginative, nor at all demonstrative in her affections. I think 

that my own imaginative and artistic temperament must come from 

my father's side. Perhaps my French ancestry has something to do 

with it. With the exception of my maternal grandfather, all my 

progenitors have been of French descent. My mother's father was 

English. 

 

"I possess a mercurial temperament and a strong sense of the 

ludicrous. Though my _physique_ is slight, my health has always 

been excellent. Of late years especially I have been greatly 

given to introspection and self-scrutiny, but have never had any 

hallucinations, mental delusions, nor hysterics, and am not at 

all superstitious. Spiritualistic manifestations, hypnotic 

dabblings, and the other psychical fads of the day have little or 

no attraction for me. In fact, I have always been skeptical of 

them, and they rather bore me. 

 

"At school I was an indolent, dreamy boy, shirking study, but 

otherwise fairly docile to my teachers. From earliest childhood I 

have indulged in omnivorous taste for reading, my particular 

likings being for travels, esthetics, metaphysical and 

theological subjects, and more recently for poetry and certain 

forms of mysticism. I never cared much for history or for 

scientific subjects. From the beginning, too, I showed a strong 

artistic bent, and possessed an overpowering love for all things 

beautiful. As a child I was passionately fond of flowers, loved 

to be in the woods and alone, and wanted to become an artist. My 

parents opposed the latter wish and I gave way before their 

opposition. 

 

"In me the homosexual nature is singularly complete, and is 

undoubtedly congenital. The most intense delight of my childhood 

(even when a tiny boy in a nurse's charge) was to watch acrobats 

and riders at the circus. This was not so much for the skillful 

feats as on account of the beauty of their persons. Even then I 

cared chiefly for the more lithe and graceful fellows. People 

told me that circus actors were wicked, and would steal little 

boys, and so I came to look upon my favorites as half-devil and 

half-angel. When I was older and could go about alone, I would 

often hang around the tents of travelling shows in hope of 

catching a glimpse of the actors. I longed to see them naked, 

without their tights, and used to lie awake at night thinking of 

them and longing to be loved and embraced by them. A certain 

bareback rider, a sort of jockey, used especially to please me on 

account of his handsome legs, which were clothed in fleshlings up 

to his waist, leaving his beautiful loins uncovered by a 

breech-clout. There was nothing consciously sensual about these 

reveries, because at the time I had no sensual feelings or 

knowledge. Curiously enough, the women-actors repelled me then 

(as they do to this day) quite as strongly as I was attracted by 

the men. 

 

"I used, also, to take great pleasure in watching men and boys in 

swimming, but my opportunities for seeing them thus were 

extremely rare. I never dared let my comrades know how I felt 

about these matters, but the sight of a well-formed, naked youth 

or man would fill me (and does now) with mingled feelings of 

bashfulness, anguish, and delight. I used to tell myself endless 

stories of a visionary castle inhabited by beautiful boys, one of 

whom was especially my dear chum. 

 

"It was always the _prince_, in fairy tales, who held my interest 

or affection. I was constantly falling in love with handsome boys 

whom I never knew; nor did I ever try to mix in their company, 


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