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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

for I was abashed before them, and had no liking nor aptitude for 

boyish games. Sometimes I played with girls because they were 

more quiet and gentler, but I cared for them little or not at 

all. 

 

"As is usually the case, my parents neglected to impart to me any 

sexual knowledge, and such as I possessed was gathered furtively 

from tainted sources, bad boys' talk at school and elsewhere. My 

elders let me know, in a vague way, that talk of the kind was 

wicked, and natural timidity and a wish to be 'good' kept me from 

learning much about sexual matters. As I never went to 

boarding-school, I was spared, perhaps, many of the degrading 

initiations administered by knowing boys at such institutions. 

 

"In spite of what has been said above, I do not believe that I 

was sexually very precocious, and even now I feel that more 

pleasure would ensue from merely contemplating than from personal 

contact with the object of my amorous attentions. 

 

"As I grew older there came, of course, an undefined physical 

longing, but it was the _beauty_ of those I admired which mainly 

appealed to me. At the time of puberty I spontaneously acquired 

the habit of masturbation. Once while bathing I found that a 

pleasant feeling came with touching the sexual organs. It was not 

long before I was confirmed in the habit. At first I practised it 

but seldom, but afterward much more frequently (say, once a 

week), though at times months have elapsed without any 

indulgences on my part. I have only had erotic dreams three or 

four times in my life. The masturbation habit I regard as 

morally reprehensible and have made many resolutions to break it, 

but without avail. It affords me only the most momentary 

satisfaction, and is always followed by remorseful scruples. 

 

"I have never in my life had any sexual feeling for a woman, nor 

any sexual connection with any woman whatsoever. The very thought 

of such a thing is excessively repugnant and disgusting to me. 

This is true, apart from any moral considerations, and I do not 

think I could bring myself to it. I am not attracted by young 

women in any way. Even their physical beauty has little or no 

charm for me, and I often wonder how men can be so affected by 

it. On the other hand, I am not a woman-hater, and have several 

strong friends of the opposite sex. They are, however, women 

older than myself, and our friendship is based solely on certain 

intellectual or esthetic tastes we have in common. 

 

"I have had practically no physical relations with men; at any 

rate, none specifically sexual. Once, when about 19 or 21, I 

started to embrace a beautifully formed youth with whom I was 

sleeping, but timidity and scruples got the better of my 

feelings, and, as my bedfellow was not amorously inclined toward 

me, nothing came of it. A few years after this I became strongly 

attached to a friend whom I had already known for several years. 

Circumstances threw us very much together during one summer. It 

was now that I felt for the first time the full shock of love. He 

returned my affection, but both of us were shy of showing our 

feelings or speaking of them. Often when walking together after 

night-fall we would put our arms about each other. Sometimes, 

too, when sleeping together we would lie in close contact, and my 

friend once suggested that I put my legs against his. He 

frequently begged me to spend the night with him; but I began to 

fear my feelings, and slept with him but seldom. We neither of us 

had any definite ideas about homosexual relations, and, apart 

from what I have related above, we had no further contact with 

each other. A few months after our amorous feelings had developed 

my friend died. His death caused me great distress, and my 

naturally religious temperament began to manifest itself quite 

strongly. At this time, too, I first read some writings of Mr. 

Addington Symonds, and certain allusions in his work, coupled 

with my recent experience, soon stirred me to a full 


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