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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

consciousness of my inverted nature. 

 

"About eight months after my friend's death I happened to meet in 

a strange town a youth of about my own age who exerted upon me a 

strong and instant attraction. He possessed a refined, handsome 

face, was gracefully built, and, though he was rather 

undemonstrative, we soon became fast friends. 

 

"We were together only for a few days, when I was obliged to 

leave for my home, and the parting caused me great unhappiness 

and depression. A few months after we spent a vacation together. 

One day during our trip we went swimming, and undressed in the 

same bathhouse. When I saw my friend naked for the first time he 

seemed to me so beautiful that I longed to throw my arms about 

him and cover him with kisses. I kept my feelings hidden, 

however, hardly daring to look at him for fear of being unable to 

restrain my desires. Several times afterward, in his room, I saw 

him stripped, with the same effect upon my emotions. Until I had 

seen him naked my feelings for him were not of a physical 

character, but afterward I longed for actual contact, but only by 

embraces and kisses. Though he was fond of me, he had absolutely 

no amorous longings for me, and being a simple, pure-minded 

fellow, would have loathed me for mine and my inverted nature. I 

was careful never to let him discover it, and I was made very 

unhappy when he confided that he was in love with a young girl 

whom he wished to marry. This episode took place several years 

ago, and though we are still friends my emotional feelings for 

him have cooled considerably. 

 

"I have always been very shy of showing any affectionate 

tendencies. Most of my acquaintances (and close friends even) 

think me curiously cold, and often wonder why I have never fallen 

in love or married. For obvious reasons I have never been able to 

tell them. 

 

"Three or four years ago a little book by Coventry Patmore fell 

into my hands, and from its perusal resulted a strange blending 

of my religious and erotic notions. The desire to love and be 

loved is hard to drown, and, when I realized that homosexually it 

was neither lawful nor possible for me to love in this world, I 

began to project my longings into the next. By birth I am a Roman 

Catholic, and in spite of a somewhat skeptical temper, manage to 

remain one by conviction. 

 

"From the doctrines of the Trinity, Incarnation, and Eucharist, I 

have drawn conclusions which would fill the minds of the average 

pietist with holy horror; nevertheless I believe that (granting 

the premises) these conclusions are both logically and 

theologically defensible. The Divinity of my fancied paradise 

resembles in no way the vapid conceptions of Fra Angelico, or the 

Quartier St. Sulpice. His physical aspect, at least, would be 

better represented by some Praxitilean demigod or Flandrin's 

naked, brooding boy. 

 

"While these imaginings have caused me considerable moral 

disquietude, they do not seem wholly reprehensible, because I 

feel that the chief happiness I would derive by their realization 

would be mainly from the contemplation of the loved one, rather 

than from closer joys. 

 

"I possess only a slight knowledge of the history and particulars 

of erotic mysticism, but it is likely that my notions are neither 

new nor peculiar, and many utterances of the few mystical writers 

with whose works I am acquainted seem substantially in accord 

with my own longings and conclusions. In endeavoring to find for 

them some sanction of valid authority, I have always sought 

corroboration from members of my own sex; hence am less likely to 

have fashioned my views after those of hypersensitive or 

hysterical women. 

 

"You will rightly infer that it is difficult for me to say 

exactly how I regard (morally) the homosexual tendency. Of this 

much, however, I am certain, that, even, if it were possible, I 

would not exchange my inverted nature for a normal one. I suspect 

that the sexual emotions and even inverted ones have a more 

subtle significance than is generally attributed to them; but 


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