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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

HISTORY XIII.--Artist, aged 34. "The earliest sex impression that 

I am conscious of," he writes, "is at the age of 9 or 10 falling 

in love with a handsome boy who must have been about two years my 

senior. I do not recollect ever having spoken to him, but my 

desire, so far as I can recall, was that he should seize hold of 

and handle me. I have a distinct impression yet of how 

pleasurable even physical pain or cruelty would have been at his 

hands. (I have noticed that in young children it is often 

difficult to differentiate the sexual emotions from what in the 

grown up would be definite cruelty.) 

 

"It must have been at about this time that I discovered--entirely 

by myself--the act of masturbation. The process grew up quite 

naturally, though I cannot but think that the cooped-up life in a 

London street and a London school, with want of physical 

exercise, as well as want of landscape, color, and beautiful 

form, had much to do with it. The tone of the school I was at was 

singularly clean, but I question whether the vaunted cleanliness 

of tone of day-schools can compensate for the open life and large 

discipline of an English public school. 

 

"How far the rather frequent masturbation between the ages of 10 

and 13 may have had to do with weakly health I do not know, but 

when I was 12 I was taken by my mother to a famous doctor. He 

made no inquiries of a sexual nature, but he advised that I 

should be sent away from London. He had a sentimental horror of 

violent games, etc., for boys, and put aside various suggested 

public schools. Finally I was sent to a private school at the 

seaside. 

 

"The private school was clean and wholesome. The plunge into the 

sexual cocytus of the great public school that followed was 

effectually sudden. In my day ---- was a perfect stew of 

uncleanness. There was plenty of incontinence, not much cruelty, 

no end of dirty conversation, and a great deal of genuine 

affection, even to heroism, shown among the boys in their 

relations to one another. All these things were treated by 

masters and boys alike as more or less unholy, with the result 

that they were either sought after or flung aside, according to 

the sexual or emotional instinct of each. No attempt was made at 

discrimination. A kiss was as unclean as the act of _fellatio_, 

and no one had any gauge or principle whatever on which to guide 

the cravings of boyhood. 

 

"My first initiation into the mysteries of sex was at the hands 

of the dormitory servant, who showed me his penis when he woke me 

in the mornings, and masturbated me when he gave me my hot bath 

on a Saturday night. This old reprobate of 45 committed the act 

of _fellatio_ with most of the boys in turn as he went the 

dormitory rounds. For the older lads I cannot speak, but over us 

younger ones of 14 and 15 he exercised a sort of unholy terror 

and fascination. He was very popular; we came to him like doves 

to a snake. When I revisited my old school many years later he 

was occupying a very responsible position in the college chapel, 

and I noticed that he wore that expression of sly reverence which 

I think I can now instantly detect when I see it in a man. 

 

"For the rest the dormitory was boisterous and lewd, and there 

was a good deal of bullying, which probably did little harm. My 

principal recollection now is of the filthy mystery of foul talk, 

that I neither cared for nor understood. What I really needed, 

like all the other boys, was a little timely help over the 

sexual problems, but this we none of us got, and each had to work 

out his own principle of conduct for himself. It was a long, 

difficult, and wasteful process, and I cannot but believe that 

many of us failed in the endeavor. We had come unprepared with 

any advice. The principle upon which we were apparently trained 

was the repression of every instinct. My mother was ignorant from 

innocence, my father from indifference, and so between them I was 

sent out helpless. A mother incurs great responsibility in 

sending her child away unprepared. A parent should not seek to 


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