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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

believe, taken off his trousers and attempted to masturbate him. 

The offense was probably horse play of an animal nature; to me it 

seemed an unpardonable offense. The matter had been reported to 

the master by a servant, but confirmatory evidence was needed 

before punishment could follow. I was torn asunder by passions I 

could not then analyze and in the end committed the greatest of 

schoolboy crimes,--I sneaked. The action under the circumstances 

was courageous, but I was indifferent so long as the boy I loved 

judged me rightly. The result was that at the close of the term 

four or five of the senior boys were 'asked to leave.' The 

remaining brief period of my school life, which had previously 

been a living hell, became really happy. That this should have 

been brought about to the harm of four or five boys whose sin, 

after all, was but a misdirected impulse for which the system was 

responsible, seems to me now all very wrong. Of the boys sent 

away, however, certainly three have made honorable careers. For 

my friend and I, we became more afraid of each other than before; 

as our affections increased, so our fear of them increased also. 

The friendship was too ethereal to live; but even yet we still 

have a deep respect for one another. 

 

"When at the age of 19 I left school I was allowed to knock about 

for a year before entering college. During this time I picked up 

a sexual experience that may or may not have been a valuable one, 

I certainly look back upon it now, with regret, if not with 

horror. My father had discovered, some months before this date, 

that I was in the habit of masturbating, and he gave me what he 

conceived to be the right counsel under the circumstances: 'If 

you do this,' he said, 'you will never be able to use your penis 

with a woman. Therefore your best plan will be to go with a 

prostitute. Should you do this, however, you will probably pick 

up a beastly disease. Therefore the safest way would be to do it 

abroad if you get the chance, for there the houses are licensed.' 

Having delivered himself of this advice he troubled himself no 

further in the matter, but left me to work out my own destiny. 

The great physician, to whom I was taken about this time, also 

gave me his advice on this point. 'Masturbation,' he said, 'is 

death. A number of young men come to me with the same story. I 

tell them they are killing themselves, and you will kill 

yourself, too.' The doctor's hope was apparently to frighten his 

young patients into what he conceived to be natural conditions of 

life, and one went away from him with the impression that every 

sexual manifestation in one's self was a physical infirmity, due 

to one's own moral weakness. It took me some time before I could 

make up my mind to follow my father's advice, but after a period 

of real moral agony I deliberately and entirely in cold blood 

acted upon it. I sought out a scarlet woman in the streets of 

---- and went home with her. From something she said to me I know 

that I gave her pleasure, and she asked me to come to her again. 

This I did twice, but without any real pleasure. The whole thing 

was too sordid and soulless, and the man who decides to take an 

evil medicine regularly has first to make up his mind that he 

really needs it. 

 

"At about the same time I chanced to be, for a few months, in a 

German university town, and I determined, as I had the 

opportunity, to carry the parental advice to the logical 

conclusion. I tried a licensed house. The place was clean and 

decent, and the conditions, I take it, such as one would normally 

find in any properly regulated continental city; but to me the 

whole thing appeared unspeakably horrible. It was a purely 

commercial transaction, and it had not even the redeeming element 

of risk to one's self, or of offense against a social or 

disciplinary code. I came away feeling that I had touched bottom 

in my sexual experiences, and I understood what it was that Faust 

saw when the red mouse sprang from the mouth of the witch in the 


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