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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

find. It has made up for all the years of mental and physical 

suffering. One strange thing is that the feeling is mutual. He 

has had a tragic life, for his wife, whom he loved beyond 

everything, died under very sad circumstances. He says I am the 

best male friend he has ever had. While with him, much of the 

lower nature in me was stamped out. I shall always look upon him 

as the turning point in my life. I think he wrought some of his 

finest influence through his music. He played Beethoven and 

Wagner for me for a couple of hours every day for months, and 

thus opened up a new world to me.... He is six years older than I 

am. 

 

"At 10 years of age we moved to Sweden, a country I hated from 

first to last. About this time I began to notice that there was 

something strange about myself. I felt myself an alien, and have 

done so ever since. An event of importance in my life was, I feel 

sure, when my father's sister tried to take away my mother's 

character. It was done in jealousy and spite, and my aunt had to 

beg my parents' pardon. Outwardly the affair was patched up; but 

I feel sure my father never really forgave his sister. Jews never 

forgive. 

 

"This event awoke in me a great hatred toward women, and it was 

many years before I could at all control it. 

 

"At the age of 14 I was much with a good-looking, musical 

American, a year older than myself. One day, while romping, very 

much the same thing occurred as with the groom. I still had no 

sexual feelings. We remained good friends. I often wished to kiss 

him. After the first time he would not allow it. He was very much 

liked among the officers and so-called high society men, and had 

always much money. About ten years later I heard he used to 

accept money after intimate intercourse with those society men. 

 

"During my fifteenth year I had great longing for sexual 

intercourse with men. At this time the first signs of hair were 

to be seen on my abdomen. 

 

"At the age of 16 a gardener, a married man with family, 

initiated me into mutual self-abuse. He lived in the back house 

of the apartment house we then inhabited. He was about 40 years 

of age, an ugly but muscularly developed man. These practices 

took place in the cellar, to which there were three entrances. I 

never allowed him to kiss me and the sight of his children always 

awoke in me a great feeling of nausea. That was the natural 

reaction of a bad conscience. For the man himself I had the 

utmost contempt. This man told me of several parks and _pissoirs_ 

where men met, and I went to these places now and again for 

erotic adventure. 

 

"I must here relate that at the age of 16 my mother warned me 

against self-abuse. It had the opposite effect, made me curious, 

so I began at once. I have continued ever since, at least once a 

day. (I have never had an involuntary emission in my whole life.) 

Between 17 and 22 it became necessary for me to do so several 

times a day. Working at art, painting, and above all music and 

beauty have a strong influence over me and set my erotic longings 

in violent motion. I have never found this do me any harm. 

Abstinence, on the other hand, has a very harmful effect on me, 

upsetting the whole nervous and physical system. I often find 

that there is a something very much wanting in self-abuse: the 

commingling of two human bodies who are _mentally_ as well as 

physically in sympathy gives an electrical satisfaction which 

quiets the whole nervous system. That at least has been my 

experience. 

 

"The gardener left and moved to the country. I then sometimes 

visited _pissoirs_ or, as they are often called, 'panoramas' 

(because they are round and one sees much there). What I saw in 

the parks during the long summer nights was quite a revelation. 

During the summer, when the husbands had sent their families in 

the country, many of them led a very indiscreet life. What I saw 

the first summer killed all the respect I had for elderly people. 

I had always connected marriage and gray hairs with virtue and 


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