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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

all these years to that night with pleasure and no feeling of 

shame. On one occasion, about this time, I happened to be 

sleeping with another young fellow (an office mate) on a holiday, 

when I awoke and found him handling my penis caressingly. I 

gently removed his hand and turned over. I thought none the less 

of him, but my body seemed to belong only to myself and the 

friend I loved. He was not an urning, I am sure, but we Were 

often together and I much entered into his interests and felt 

infinite satisfaction with life, made good progress and many 

friends. Our physical intimacy was repeated, he taking the active 

part in intercrural contact. Then he married very happily. Our 

friendship remains, but circumstances prevent our often meeting, 

and there is no longer desire on either part. 

 

"For some years I was rather lonely in spite of friends. I was 

somewhat attracted to another man, but his superior social 

position was a defect to me. Then when about 28 I came in contact 

with a young man of 24, of the artisan class, but superior in 

ideals and intelligence to most men. I loved him at first glance 

and to this day. At first it was just friendship, but soon his 

form, voice, and thoughts entered into my very soul by day and 

night. I longed always to be near him, to see him progress and 

help him if I could. I would joyfully have given up home, 

friends, and income, and followed him to the end of the world, 

preferably an island where we two might at least be the only 

white men. He seemed to embody all I longed for in the way of 

knowledge of nature, of strength, of practical ability, and the 

desire to imitate him in these things widened and strengthened my 

character. The first time I slept with him I could only summon 

courage to put my arm over his chest, but I could not sleep for 

unsatisfied desire, and the unrelieved erection caused a dull 

pain on the morrow. I had always disliked conversation that might 

be regarded as bordering on the obscene, and consequently was 

very ignorant on most matters; it pained me even to hear him 

laugh at such remarks. I think if he had been intimate with me I 

should have not conversed much on such topics, but now I felt 

pleasure in such things with him as they expressed intimacy. I 

dreamed about him and was never really happy in his absence; the 

greatest joy would have been to have slept in his arms; the 

hairiness of his legs and arms were also most fascinating. 

Perhaps a year later, we were again at night together, and this 

time I by degrees felt his private organs, but he was cold and I 

felt a little unsatisfied. I wanted to be hugged. This happened 

once more, and then on a later occasion,--not that it afforded me 

much gratification, but because I wanted to stimulate him to 

ardor,--I attempted masturbation. This aroused his disgust and I 

was consequently dismayed. He told me I ought to marry and, 

although I knew his love was all I wanted, I did not feel but 

what I could make a woman happy. The constant unrelieved 

erections which took place when I saw my friend adopt a graceful 

attitude caused pain at the bottom of my back, and I consulted 

two specialists, who also advised marriage. I did not tell them I 

was an 'invert,' for I hardly knew it was a recognized thing, but 

I did tell them something of what had taken place, and they made 

next to no comment, but implied it was frequent. My friend now 

felt repulsion toward me, but did not express himself, and as 

other circumstances then caused a barrier between us to a certain 

extent, I did not realize the true reason of his coldness. But I 

felt utterly miserable. When I met a noble woman whom I had long 

known I asked her to be my wife and she consented. Although I 

told her very soon, and long before our marriage, of my 

limitations as a husband and of my continued longing for my 

friend, I feel now I did a great wrong, and I cannot understand 

why I was not more conscious of this at the time; that I was to a 

certain extent deceiving her relations was inevitable. I had 


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