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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

time that the whole thing was so much an original invention of 

his and mine that there was no likelihood of it being practised 

by anyone else in the world. But this consideration did not 

restrain me in constructing love scenes with all those whose 

appearance attracted me. At this period nearly every man with 

whom I came in contact won at least my transient desire; only the 

quite old and deformed lay outside the scope of my wishes. Many 

of my amours developed in church; the men who sat near me were 

the objects of my attention, and the clergyman, whose sermon I 

did not listen to, supplied me with an occasion for reverie on 

the charms his person would have for me under other 

circumstances. It must have been at this time that I began to 

elaborate ideas of a serried rank of congregated thighs across 

which I lay and was dragged. I would arrange them in definite 

order and then imagine myself drawn across from one to the other 

somewhat forcibly. Admiration of strength was beginning at this 

time to have a definite part in my conceptions, but anything of 

the nature of cruelty had not then appealed to me. (I except the 

original dream of my childhood, which seems to me still to stand 

fantastically apart.) In the inventions to which I now gave 

myself the sense of being passed across limbs of different 

texture and color was subtle and pleasurable. I think the note of 

constructive cruelty which now followed arose from an imagined 

rivalry among my lovers for possession of me; the idea that I was 

desired made me soon take a delight in imagining myself torn and 

snatched about by the contending parties. Presently out of this I 

began constructing definite scenes of violence. I was able in 

imagination to lie in the thick and stress of conglomerated 

deliciousness of thighs struggling to hold me; I was able to 

imagine at least six bodies encircling me with passionate 

contact. At the same time I had an ingrained feeling of my own 

physical smallness in relation to the limbs whose contact threw 

me into such paroxysms of delight. A new and sufficiently 

ludicrous invention took possession of me; I imagined myself 

strapped to the thigh (always, I think, the right one) of the man 

on whom I chose, for the time, to concentrate my desires, and so 

to be worn by him during his day's work, hidden beneath his 

garments. I was not conscious of any difficulty due to my size. 

The charm of bondage and compulsion was here, again, in the 

ascendant. I fancy that it was in this connection that I first 

anticipated whipping as the delightful climax to my emotions, 

administered when my possessor, at the end of his day's work, 

unclothed himself for rest. 

 

"Up to this stage my attraction to the male organ of generation 

had been slight and vague. Two things now contributed to bring 

thought of it into prominence. On two or three occasions when I 

accompanied farm laborers to their occupations I saw them pause 

by the way to relieve nature. My extreme shyness as regards such 

matters in my own person made this performance in my presence 

like an outrage on my modesty; it had about it the suggestion of 

an indecent solicitation to one whose inclination was to headlong 

and delirious surrender. I stood rooted and flushing with 

downcast eyes till the act was over and was conscious for a 

considerable time of stammering speech and bewildered faculties. 

When I afterward reviewed the circumstances they had the same 

attraction for me that amorous cruelty was just then beginning to 

exercise on my imagination. My mind secretly embraced the fearful 

sweetness of the newly discovered sensation, surrounding the 

performance of the function with all sorts of atrocious and 

bizarre inventions. For a time my intellect hung back from 

accepting this as the central and most fiery secret of the male 

attraction; but shortly afterward, when out walking with my 

father, I saw him perform the same act; I was overwhelmed with 

emotion and could barely drag my feet from the spot or my eyes 

from the damp herbage where he had deposited the waters of 


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