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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

secrecy. Even today, when my mind has been long accustomed to the 

knowledge of generative facts, I cannot dissociate myself from 

the shuddering charm that moment had for me. The attraction my 

father's person had always had for me was now increased tenfold 

by the performance I had witnessed (though I had not seen the 

penis in any of these cases). 

 

"For a considerable time only those lovers were dominant in my 

imagination whom I had witnessed in the act that had so 

poignantly affected me. My delight now took the form of imagining 

myself strapped to the thighs of the person while this function 

was in progress. 

 

"By this time I must have been 8 years old. The cold and secret 

relationship of which I have given an account had continued 

without instructing me in any of the ardent possibilities it 

might have suggested; no force or cruelty was used upon me, no 

warmth was lavished. It made little difference that my companion 

had now discovered the act of masturbation; it had no meaning to 

me, since it led to no warmth of embrace. His method was to avert 

himself from me; I had to fawn upon him from the rear and also to 

invent indecent stories to stimulate his imagination. I felt 

myself a despised instrument, the mere spectator of an act which, 

if directed toward me with any warmth, would have aroused the 

liveliest appetite. At this time, as I have since seen, my 

companion was gaining knowledge from the ancient classics. For a 

time some charm was imparted by his instructing me to adopt a 

superincumbent face-to-face embrace. The beginning of his puberty 

was enormously attractive to me; had he been less cold-blooded I 

could have responded passionately to his endearments; but he 

always insisted on rigorous passivity on my part, and he 

explained nothing. One day, by a small gratuity, he induced me to 

offer him my mouth, though I still had no comprehension of the 

result I was helping to attain. Once the orgasm occurred, and the 

effect was extremely nauseous; after that he was more careful. My 

companion was approaching manhood, and his demands became more 

frequent, his exactions more humiliating. 

 

"At the same time my passion for male love was growing stronger. 

I was able to construct from the unsatisfactory bondage in which 

I was held images of bodily embrace which I had not before had 

sufficient sense of human contact to form, though I seldom 

imagined any of the acts that in actual experience repulsed me. 

One day, however, I shirked a particularly repulsive humiliation 

which my companion had forced upon me. He discovered the 

deception, rose from the prone position in which he lay, and 

throwing me across his knees thrashed me violently. I submitted 

without a struggle, experiencing a curious sensation of pleasure 

in the midst of my pain. When he repeated his order I found its 

accomplishment no longer repulsive. One of the few pleasurable 

memories this intimacy, extending over years, has left for me is 

that moment of abject abasement to one who, with no warmth of 

feeling, had yet once had sufficient energy to be brutal to me. 

 

"It must have been from this incident that the calculated effect 

of flagellation began to have weight with me when I indulged my 

imagination. A wish to be repulsed, trampled, violated by the 

object of my passion took hold of my instincts. Even then--and, 

indeed, up to my 13th year--I had no idea of normal sexual 

connection. I knew vaguely that children were born from women's 

bodies; I did not know--and when told I did not believe--the true 

facts of the marital relationship. All that I had 

experienced--both in fact and imagination--was to me so highly 

individual that I had no notion anything kindred to it could 

exist outside of my own experience. I had no notion of sex as the 

basis of life. Even when I came gradually to realize that men and 

women were formed in a way that argued connection with each 

other, I still believed it to be a dissolute sort of conduct, not 


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