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only of precocious nervous and sexual irritability, greatly
heightened and directed by the secret practices of the children
with whom he associated. He does not see why these experiences
should have given him a homosexual bent any more than a
The psychoanalysis recalled to M.O. that during the period of
early flirtation he had often kissed and embraced various girls,
but likewise he recalled having observed at the same time, with
some surprise, that no definitely sexual desire arose, though the
way was probably open to gratify it. Such interest as did exist
ceased wholly or almost so as the relation with Edmund developed.
There was no aversion from the company of girls and women,
however; the intellectual friendships were mainly with them,
while the emotional ones were with boys.
Very recently M.O. spent several days with Edmund, who has been
married for several years. With absolutely no sexual interest in
each other, they nevertheless found a great bond of love still
subsisting. Neither regrets anything of the past, but feels that
the final outcome of their earlier relation has been good.
Edmund's beauty is still pronounced, and is remarked by others.
In spite of his precocious sexuality, M.O. had from the very
first an extreme disgust for obscene stories, and for any
association of sexual things with filthy words and anecdotes.
Owing in part to this and in part to his temperamental
skepticism, he disbelieved what associates told him regarding
sexual emissions, only becoming convinced when he actually
experienced them; and the facts of reproduction he denied
indignantly until he read them in a medical work. Until he was
well over 25 the physical aversion from any thought of
reproduction was intense. He knows other, normal, young men who
have felt the same way, but he believes it would be prevented or
overcome by sex-education such as is now being introduced in
Again, as to traces of feminism: Perhaps two years ago, all
impulse to give the love-bite disappeared suddenly. There has
been lately a marked increase of dramatic interest, arising in
perfectly natural ways, and without any of the peculiarities
noted before. The childish pleasure in valentines has all gone;
M.O. believes that _circumstances_ have lately been more
favorable for the development of a more robust estheticism.
For some years he has heard no definite reproach for feminism,
though some persons tell his friends that he is "very peculiar."
He forms many intimate, enduring, non-sexual friendships with
both men and women, and he doubts if the peculiarity noted by
others is due so much to his homosexuality as it is to his
estheticism, skepticism, and the unconventional opinions which he
expresses quite indiscreetly at times. With the improvement in
general health, has come the changes that would be expected in
food and other matters of daily life.
Resuming his narrative at the point where the earlier
communication left it, M.O. says that about a year after that
time, the youth of 17 to whom he had considered himself virtually
engaged withdrew from the agreement so far as it bore on his own
future, but not from the sentimental relation as it existed.
Although separated most of the time by distance, the physical
relation was resumed whenever they met. Subsequently, however,
the young man fell in love with a young woman and became engaged
to her. His physical relation with M.O. then ceased, but the
friendship otherwise continues strong.
Shortly after the first break in this relation, M.O. became,
through the force of quite unusual circumstances, very friendly
and intimate with a young woman of considerable charm. He
confided to her his abnormality, and was not repulsed. To others
their relation probably appeared that of lovers, and a painful
situation was created by the slander of a jealous woman. M.O.
felt that in honor he must propose marriage to her. The young
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