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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

apt to wake in terrible depression about 3 o'clock in the 

morning. In the early days of our friendship, about eight months 

ago, she occasionally at these times took refuge with me. After a 

while I insisted on her consulting a doctor, who advised her, 

amongst other things, not to sleep alone. Thenceforth for two or 

three months I induced her to share my room. After a week or two 

she generally shared my bed for a time at the beginning of the 

night, as it seemed to help her to sleep. 

 

"Before this, about the second or third time that she came to me 

in the early morning, I had been surprised and a little 

frightened to find how pleasant it was to me to have her, and how 

reluctant I was that she should go away. When we began regularly 

to sleep in the same room, the physical part of our affection 

grew rapidly very strong. It is natural for me generally to 

caress my friends, but I soon could not be alone in a room with 

this one without wanting to have my arms round her. It would have 

been intolerable to me to live with her without being able to 

touch her. We did not discuss it, but it was evident that the 

desire was even stronger in her than in me. 

 

"For some time it satisfied us fully to be in bed together. One 

night, however, when she had had a cruelly trying day and I 

wanted to find all ways of comforting her, I bared by breast for 

her to lie on. Afterward it was clear that neither of us could be 

satisfied without this. She groped for it like a child, and it 

excited me much more to feel that than to uncover my breast and 

arms altogether at once. 

 

"Much of this excitement was sexually localized, and I was 

haunted in the daytime by images of holding this woman in my 

arms. I noticed also that my inclination to caress my other women 

friends was not diminished, but increased. All this disturbed me 

a good deal. The homosexual practices of which I had read lately 

struck me as merely nasty; I could not imagines myself tempted to 

them;--at the same time the whole matter was new to me, for I had 

never wanted anyone even to share my bed before; I had read that 

sex instinct was mysterious and unexpected, and I felt that I did 

not know what might come next. 

 

"I knew only one elder person whom (for wide-mindedness, 

gentleness, and saintliness) I could bear to consult; and to this 

person, a middle-aged man, I wrote for advice. He replied by a 

long letter of the most tender warning. I had better not weaken 

my influence with my friend, he wrote, by going back suddenly or 

without her consent, but I was to be very wary of going further; 

there was fire about. I tried to put this into practice by 

restraining myself constantly in our intercourse, by refraining 

from caressing her, for instance, when I wanted to caress her and 

knew that she wanted it. The only result seemed to be that the 

desire was more tormenting and constant than ever. 

 

"If at this point my friend had happened to die or go away, and 

the incident had come to an end, I should probably have been left 

nervous in these matters for years to come. I should have 

faltered in the opinion I had always held, that bodily 

expressions of love between women were as innocent as they were 

natural; and I might have come nearer than I ever expected to the 

doctrine of those convent teachers who forbid their girls to 

embrace one another for fear an incalculable instinct should 

carry them to the edge of an abyss. 

 

"As it was, after a while I said a little on the subject to my 

friend herself. I had been inclined to think that she might share 

my anxiety, but she did not share it at all. She said to me that 

she did not like these thoughts, that she cared for me more than 

She had ever done for any person except one (now causing most of 

her unhappiness), and wanted me in all possible ways, and that it 

would make her sad to feel that I was trying not to want her in 

one way because I thought it was wrong. 

 

"On my part, I knew very well how much she did need and want me. 


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