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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

gratification, I hardly know. I have experienced very keen 

physical pleasure, mingled with what I took to be great mental 

exaltation and quickening of the emotions. This condition was 

brought about by close contact with the body of my friend, 

usually by lying upon it. But if by 'gratification' it is meant 

that desire, having been completely satisfied, ceases 

temporarily, I think I have never had that experience. If I did, 

it was when I was about 18 when I lived with a girl friend in 

intimate relations. Of late years, at any rate, it has never 

happened to me, and an embrace, however close, always leaves me 

with a desire for a closer union, both physical and spiritual. So 

a few years since, I came to the conclusion that it was 

impossible to obtain physical satisfaction through the woman I 

loved. I came to this conclusion because of the bad physical 

effects of contact. My sexual organs became highly sensitive and 

inflamed and I suffered pain from the inflammation and resulting 

leucorrhea. Should I allow myself to indulge in caresses this 

condition would return. My friend, fortunately, though very 

affectionate and demonstrative toward me, has very little sexual 

passion. The idea that our relationship is based upon it is very 

repugnant to her. I was at one time, a few years since, much 

discouraged and almost hopeless of being able to overcome my 

appetite, and I decided that we could not associate unless I 

succeeded. At present, with help, I have very largely succeeded 

in living with my friend on a basis of normal, though 

affectionate and tender, companionship. I have been helped more, 

and have learned more, through this companionship, than through 

anything else. The keen pleasure that I have felt when in 

responsive contact I never experienced in masturbation. So far as 

I remember it never took place till I was well along in my 'teens 

and was never an habitual practice, except the first summer I was 

separated from a school friend whom I loved. Thoughts of her 

aroused feelings which I attempted to satisfy in this way, but 

the entire sensuality of the act soon led me to refrain and to 

see that that was not what I wanted. 

 

"A peculiar incident that might have some significance occurred 

to me about five years ago. I was sitting in a small room where a 

seminar was being conducted. The leader of the discussion was a 

man about 50, whom I looked up to on account of his attainments 

and respected as a man, though I knew him socially very slightly. 

I had lost a night's sleep from toothache and was feeling 

nervous. I was giving my entire attention to the subject in hand, 

when suddenly I felt a very strong physical compulsion toward 

that man. I did not know what I was going to do, but I felt on 

the point of losing all control of myself. I was afraid to leave, 

for fear the slightest movement would throw me into a panic. The 

attraction was entirely physical and like nothing I had felt 

before. And I had a strange feeling that its cause was in the man 

himself; that he was willing it; I was like a spectator. It was 

some moments before the assemblage broke up, when my 'possession' 

completely disappeared and never recurred. 

 

"Regarding dreams, I will say that not until the past year or two 

have I been conscious of having clear-cut dreams with definite 

happenings. They seemed usually to leave only vague impressions, 

such as a feeling that I had been riding horseback, or trying to 

perform some hard task. Sexual dreams I do not recall having had 

for several years, except that occasionally I am awakened by a 

feeling of uncomfortable sexual desire, which seems usually 

caused by a need to urinate. Between the ages of 17 and 22, 

approximately, I frequently, perhaps several times a month, would 

have vague sexual dreams. These always, I think, occurred when I 

happened to be sleeping with someone whom, in my dream, I would 

mistake for my intimate friend, and would awaken myself by 

embracing my bedfellow with sometimes a slight, sometimes 


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