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PREFACE
INTRODUCTION-1.1
INTRODUCTION-1.2
INTRODUCTION-1.3
INTRODUCTION-1.4
INTRODUCTION-1.5
INTRODUCTION-1.6
INTRODUCTION-1.7
FOOTNOTES-1
FOOTNOTES-2
THE STUDY OF SEXUAL INVERSION
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN MEN-3
HISTORY-1-2-3-4
HISTORY-5
HISTORY-6
HISTORY-7-8
HISTORY-9
HISTORY-10-11-12
HISTORY-13-14
HISTORY-15
HISTORY-16-17-18-19
HISTORY-20
HISTORY-21 (begin)
HISTORY-21 (end)
HISTORY-22-23-24
HISTORY-25
HISTORY-26
HISTORY-27
HISTORY-28-29-30-31-32
HISTORY-33
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-1
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-2
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-3
SEXUAL INVERSION IN WOMEN-4
HISTORY-34-35-36-37
HISTORY-38
HISTORY-39.1
HISTORY-39.2
HISTORY-39.3
HISTORY-39.4
FOOTNOTES
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
THE NATURE OF SEXUAL INVERSION-4
FOOTNOTES
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-1
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-2
THE THEORY OF SEXUAL INVERSION-3
CONCLUSIONS-1
CONCLUSIONS-2
CONCLUSIONS-3
CONCLUSIONS-4
FOOTNOTES
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B-1
APPENDIX B-2-3-4
INDEX OF AUTHORS

suggestions. 

 

"Every half-holiday I went out with the boys from my brothers' 

school. They always liked me to play with them, and, though not 

pleasant-tongued boys, were always civil and polite to me. I 

organized games and fortifications that they would never have 

imagined for themselves, led storming parties, and instituted 

some rather dangerous games of a fighting kind. I taught my 

brothers; to throw stones. Sometimes I led adventures such as 

breaking into empty houses. I liked being out after dark. 

 

"In the winter I made and rigged boats and went sailing them, and 

I went rafting and pole-leaping. I became a very good jumper and 

climber, could go up a rope, bowl overhand, throw like a boy, and 

whistle three different ways. I collected beetles and butterflies 

and went shrimping and learned to fish. I had very little money 

to spend, but I picked things up and I made all traps, nets, 

cages, etc., myself. I learned from every working-man, I could 

get hold of the use of all ordinary carpenters' tools, and how to 

weld hot iron, pave, lay bricks and turf, and so on. 

 

"When I was about 11 my parents got more mortified at my behavior 

and perpetually threatened me with a boarding-school. I was told 

for months how it would take the nonsense out of me--'shape me,' 

'turn me into a young lady.' My going was finally announced to me 

as a punishment to me for being what I was. 

 

"Certainly, the horror of going to this school and the cruel and 

unsympathetic way that I was sent there gave me a shock that I 

never got over. The only thing that reconciled me to going was my 

intense indignation with those who sent me. I appealed to be 

allowed to learn Latin and boys' subjects, but was laughed at. 

 

"I was so helpless that I knew I could not run away without being 

caught, or I would have run away anywhere from home and school. I 

never cried or fretted, but burnt with anger and went like a 

trapped rabbit. 

 

"In no words can I describe the severity of the nervous shock, or 

the suffering of my first year at school. The school was noted 

for its severity and I heard that at one period the elder girls 

ran away so often that they wore a uniform dress. I knew two who 

had run away. The teachers in my time were ignorant, 

self-indulgent women who cared nothing for the girls or their 

education and made much money out of them. There was a suspicious 

reformatory atmosphere, and my money was taken from me and my 

letters read. 

 

"I was intensely shy. I hated the other girls. There were no 

refinements anywhere; I had no privacy in my room, which was 

always overcrowded; we had no hot water, no baths, improper food, 

and no education. We were not allowed to wear enough clean linen, 

and for five years I never felt clean. 

 

"I never had one moment to myself, was not allowed to read 

anything, had even not enough lesson books, was taught nothing to 

speak of except a little inferior music and drawing. I never got 

enough exercise, and was always tired and dull, and could not 

keep my digestion in order. My pride and self-respect were 

degraded in innumerable ways, I suffered agonies of disgust, and 

the whole thing was a dreary penal servitude. 

 

"I did not complain. I made friends with a few of the girls. Some 

of the older girls were attracted to me. Some talked of men and 

love affairs to me, but I was not greatly interested. No one ever 

spoke of any other matters of sex to me or in my hearing, but 

most of the girls were shy with me and I with them. 

 

"In about two years' time the teachers got to like me and thought 

me one of their nicest girls. I certainly influenced them and got 

them to allow the girls more privileges. 

 

"I lay great stress upon the physical privations and disgust that 

I felt during these years. The mental starvation was not quite so 

great because it was impossible for them to crush my mind as they 

did my body. That it all materially aided to arrest the 

development of my body I am certain. 


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